life about death, part two

my first post for july. suppose to keep an update per week, but sometimes when the surrounding and mood isnt right, u juz cant ‘pen’ down anything, especially ur inner feelings. when i met up with my ‘animals’ friends last friday to cafe del mar, i realise i only had less than a month before school starts again. and when i look at the red clock behind me, juz 30 minutes before monday blue starts again.. i look at my payslip and realise its gonna be a broke month before the next paycheck.. and the thought of hving a permanent partner to tok to would hv been better OR (if you are attached) the freedom of choices being single once again would be better off for u..? or r u bothered by the lump at the side of ur waist or the 4-D u didnt strike over the weekends.. everytime u think of them? Typical.

u may refer to my previous post in 15 February-2009 “life about death”. wad i wish to comment is that, our little sorrowed talk is nothing compared to ppl who are struggling to survive. friends heed me for advices a lot, rship problems etc. i can talk into how easy i can about forgetting somebody, and how i move on with my life at ease. but personally, its not. we can never forget someone, but if we made the mistake, we gotta take it like a man, and move on.

“today’s reality is tomorrow’s obsolescence.” i hv said this before, of course and felt it before. i got dumped and did crazy shits before, everyone does. and den one day i realise why did i ever do such things, beyond my trueself? there are things u go obsessed with right now, arent as important as they are in 5 yrs time. think about something u possessed and obssessed 5 yrs ago. i talk myself into this whenever im depressed losin something.

now’s a good time to give myself some space and time to do wad i want, and be thankful of the family and friends around me. i believe there are more things ahead that awaits us.